~sigh~ Man I swear May has NOT been my month at all. I've been feeling worse and worse with each day. I practically broke my ties with someone I held dear and that's when things got worse. Physically I've been more fatigued than usual, constantly sighing with heavy eyes wanting nothing more than sleep... it's been like this for nearly a week now. My mom says she's had enough of my behavior... my behavior? What did I do? I didn't start fights or break things... I've been docile and to myself lately. I think... I may have depression and my mom is starting to become certain of that too because for how long the symptoms have been persisting and how severe they've been getting. Personally I'm downright TERRIFIED of anti-depressants, I've seen what they do to people.. how their mannerisms change and they seem... very little like how they used to be. Not to mention once you're on anti-depressants you're on them for life, my mom works in a hospital so she knows.. she's seen patient records. I don't want to change just because of some squabble I had with someone lasting this long and taking affects on my body... I.. don't. I tried to reason with my mom but it's too late, an appointment has been set for next Wednesday..... now I'm mortified. Maybe I'm just bipolar or something? Meh I dunno... sorry for the useless update, I just had to get this off my chest as my resources around me are very..... dry.

Laterz......